around here

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the life that surrounds me daily is a colorful and happy one

i am forever grateful for it as well as for a husband who constantly steps up to the plate not only as a partner but also as a friend and a wonderful father

we have an amazing daughter who brightens up our world more than we ever dreamed of

we are surrounded by people we love and who love us

yet my world lately is a dark one

inside my heart i feel great anger and resentment

as well as a great feeling of abandonment

from my own family

i am well aware that no family is perfect

people are not perfect

quite often they can be assholes actually

my family was never close to perfect

from the beginning it was anything but perfect

but, as the years went on, as we matured, i had hoped for a sense of closeness

we had made it through a lifetime of bad storms and were now supposed to enjoy life as partners who fought the rough times together

the outcome has been anything but

we are now more distant than ever

strangers to one another really

this family life i never saw or wanted for myself or for my daughter hurts me every day

it is constantly there

keeping me from fully diving into the colorful and happy world that surrounds me

because i am filled with so much anger and resentment

and i don’t quite know how to come to peace with it

but i want to be free of it

happy friday friends

i wish you all a wonderful weekend

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a silly hat for silly hat school day

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sleepy mornings

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in the morning light

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a sweet ride

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the day she got her first barbie with her own money

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a garden update

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swimming while we worked

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a breakfast al fresco

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sleepy Foxy

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always creating art

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a girl and her dog

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i have always wanted a table filled with succulents

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a walk home from a birthday party

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she got home from school and asked for a picnic blanket and a popsicle

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she woke up and asked for a breakfast picnic on the terrace (it was all about the picnics)

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bunny ears, face painting and heelies. a typical afternoon here

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morning instagrammers

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always ready for a holiday

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a flying fairy

once upon a time:

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