On the flip side

After having felt completely run down both physically and emotionally and having written about it (so thankful for that and all the wonderful support I received), I have decided to flip things around and focus on the wonderful things that I have instead of what I don’t have. 🙂

So what if we don’t have the 3 bedroom house of our dreams with a yard? We have a wonderful 1 bedroom apartment where we have had wonderful times and will have wonderful memories when we one day leave.

This apartment is the only home Lily knows. It’s where we brought her the day she was born. It’s from here that we walk down the street and go to the beach within a 30 minute walk. It’s from here that we make a left at the end of the block and meet Claudia and Sofia for wonderful afternoons at the park.

So what if I don’t have the freedom I once had? I have a wonderful husband (I la-la love you Will) and a beautiful and healthy baby Lily (I love you Lily).

I have wonderful old friends close and far and I now have new wonderful mommy friends as well (thank you Claudia, Zura and Sherrie).

Even though our families are far (in West Virginia and in Portugal), they are wonderful and I am so lucky to have them! And most importantly, everyone is healthy.

I am so fortunate and blessed to be able to stay home with Lily. (thank you Will!) It is the most wonderful and challenging job in the world but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Anything!

Being able to be a full time mom is an opportunity of a lifetime. It may never happen again. It may only happen once. There are a many changes to go through along the way both emotional and physical but I truly believe that the woman in me was not born until the day that Lily was born. I may have thought of myself a woman then, but I was not.

With all this around me, I lately cannot stop hearing these words playing in my head: “…and I think to myself what a wonderful world…” (thank you Louis Armstrong)

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
and I think to myself, what a wonderful world

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
the bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
and I think to myself, what a wonderful world

the colors of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands, saying, “How do you do?”
they’re really saying, “I love you”

I hear babies cry, I watch them grow
they’ll learn much more, than I’ll ever know
and I think to myself, what a wonderful world
yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world

Oh yeah

Louis Armstrong (1996)

And on that note, have a great weekend everyone!