My dearest Lily,

With moving becoming more and more of a reality, I worry if this is the right move for our family.

I worry if this is the right move for you!

I feel such pain in my heart and such guilt when I think about taking you away from your friends and everything you know.

I’m aware that you are just 14 months old and you will adjust to just about any situation but, I just can’t help but to worry.

When I was little, I was moved around a lot and I hated it.

Constantly having to make new friends, getting to know new places, having to constantly adapt…

I hated it!

I hope that Raleigh will be the right place for us.

I hope you will be as happy there as you are here if not more.

I hope we get a house where you can grow into and have the same friends for a long time.

Roots are important.

I feel like I never had them.

Maybe that’s why it’s so important for me to give them to you.

Just know that pai and I always have the best intentions and your best interest in mind.

Love you,

your mama.

here you are with Dylan and Sofia (your best friends) at the neighborhood park

here i am on my 6th birthday with all my neighborhood friends. we moved when i was 8 and then when i was 10 and then again when i was 14 🙁