Zombie

I have been feeling like a zombie lately.

Lily has not been sleeping well at night at all (last night was the first time in a week) and it is really (REALLY) taking its toll on me.

She has been waking up during the night, anywhere from 12am to 4am and won’t go back to sleep.

After spending the whole day with her, the last thing I want while I’m trying to get some sleep and rest is listen to her cry.

I think it would be different if she was in a separate room but since she is still in the same room with us (like 2′ away!), I have just been putting her in bed with us.

I’m aware that I’m creating a habit I do NOT want but, I’m too exhausted and frustrated to hear her cry it out.

I am EX-HAUS-TED!!

I don’t feel like myself at all these days.

I’m all zombie-like just going through the motions.

I feel ugly.

I feel old.

I used to have great posture, now, I don’t even have the energy to walk straight. (Will is constantly making me aware that I’m slouching)

After 15 months of being with Lily day and night (with the exception of a few outings), I think I need a break.

I NEED to rejuvenate.

I need to feel like myself again, not like this zombie I have been feeling like.

Do any of you feel like this?

Do you have any advice for me?

What is the answer?

oh hi! where did you go????