I have been feeling like a zombie lately.
Lily has not been sleeping well at night at all (last night was the first time in a week) and it is really (REALLY) taking its toll on me.
She has been waking up during the night, anywhere from 12am to 4am and won’t go back to sleep.
After spending the whole day with her, the last thing I want while I’m trying to get some sleep and rest is listen to her cry.
I think it would be different if she was in a separate room but since she is still in the same room with us (like 2′ away!), I have just been putting her in bed with us.
I’m aware that I’m creating a habit I do NOT want but, I’m too exhausted and frustrated to hear her cry it out.
I am EX-HAUS-TED!!
I don’t feel like myself at all these days.
I’m all zombie-like just going through the motions.
I feel ugly.
I feel old.
I used to have great posture, now, I don’t even have the energy to walk straight. (Will is constantly making me aware that I’m slouching)
After 15 months of being with Lily day and night (with the exception of a few outings), I think I need a break.
I NEED to rejuvenate.
I need to feel like myself again, not like this zombie I have been feeling like.
Do any of you feel like this?
Do you have any advice for me?
What is the answer?
oh hi! where did you go????
You make a gorgeous Zombie. I would guess the last of her teeth are coming in. Try and take your vacation. That seems like a good plan.
@Sara,
thank you. i am going to try to come up with something.
xo
Take a spa and brunch day on Sunday with friends or something more simple like getting your favorite book and go sit at your fav cafe and read then go enjoy the beach by yourself. I am sure will would love to watch Lily and you and get some YOU time for a few hours.
@Meghan,
thank you. i will definitely have to do something like that for the day. i need it!
wyatt has been the same! seriously, we’re back to waking up in the middle of the night again. except i just put him in our bed and it’s usually restless sleeping for the rest of the night. when we move, and we put him in his own room, i’m just going to let him cry it out. i’m done. i hope you get sleep soon.
@Jess,
i can’t wait for her to have her own room. hope you get some sleep also.
Claud’s you might want to do something just for yourself…take a photography class, work one night a week, painting class, yoga something you can look forward to that won’t keep you away to long from the family. I was burnt out too, I went back to work two days a week just a silly job were I just get to be around people. I live in the boonies, there are no kids, moms, friends, it takes me 40 minutes to get to town, stores, etc. Over four years of just me a the kids made me get “funny” My self esteem was low, I started to withdraw from everything. I love my family more than anything which is good! You just can’t forget about yourself and all the other things you love as well, It’s a great lesson to teach your children. Never loose YOU!
Lily is probably getting teeth, or just feeling hey I wanna be with them right over there. Both of my boys sleep with us. It’s hard but hey their sleeping and so do we. Milo is transitioning into his bed now. He won’t sleep with us forever. What ever it takes for everyone to get a happy good night sleep. They are only small for so long anyway.
Hang in there it’s all just a phase…LOVE YOU!
Jules
@Julia,
thanks Jules.
you are right. i need to start doing more for me.
love you!
PS from all the pics I’ve seen of you lately..you look beautiful!
hey just saw this post, aw babes hope things have gotten better by now.. “this too shall pass” yes? man big deal if she comes to bed with you guys, if it works let it be.. we did the same, I enjoyed it actually and we SLEPT, wont even last long- she will be in toddler bed soon enough. btw, you are a gorg zombie!!
@Melissa,
everything is much better, thanks mama. you better than anyone knows how it is…. xoxo