“I’m happy again”

This time around, this trip to Portugal has been quite hard on Lily.

After more than one month away in West Virginia and NC, after 1 week at home, she was just starting to get used to Miami again.

She was not yet ready to let it all go.

The first night here, she was so exhausted that she slept 14 hours straight. (from 9pm-11am)

I thought the transition had been done successfully.

Was I wrong!

Wednesday night Lily went to bed again before 9pm, a bit later than usual. After she was asleep for 2 hours, she woke up and wouldn’t go back to sleep.

She was worried and restless.

“Airplane” she kept saying and wanted to get off the bed.

It was obvious to me that she wanted to go back home.

I asked her if she wanted to talk to pai (Will) and got him online.

We video chatted for a while. She asked him to get certain books from her room and to please read them to her.

She kept saying “pai. airplane. this house. sit with me”.

I tried my hardest not to break down in tears and can’t even imagine how Will must have felt being thousands of miles away from her.

It was heartbreaking!!

While in bed with her, I tried to soothe her but she continued on being restless.

Although she wasn’t crying or trying to leave the bed, I could see her brain going fast just by looking at her eyes.

She eventually fell asleep a little after 2am. (she has never, ever done this before)

Yesterday morning when she woke up at 8am, she wanted to get dressed and again said “airplane”.

In the afternoon I took her to the park and all of the sudden I could start seeing the Lily that I know.

Once on the swing, I asked her if she was happy.

She replied “I’m happy again”.

Nothing like seeing your child happy. Nothing like feeling guilty for your child’s unhappiness.

“i’m happy again”

happy smiles 🙂