i wasn’t sure if i could ever (ever) love another like i love Lily
i wasn’t sure if i wanted to lose myself again after i just got myself back
i wasn’t sure if i could be a good mother to two since sometimes i feel like i’m not even being a good mother to one
then for the past two weeks my body was acting all funny
signs of pms but times 100
i thought, maybe?
could i be?
and the feeling of excitement over the possibility of being pregnant returned
the picture you see above is from this morning
i’m not pregnant
but when i went to bed last night and when i woke up this morning i wanted to be
and that just shows me that i can love another like i love Lily
and it shows me that i am ready and have changed my mind
and that makes me happy
(coincidentally, today, three years ago was when we found out we were pregnant with Lily)