Baby talk
not too long ago (like 2 months) i wasn’t sure if i wanted to have another baby
i wasn’t sure if i could ever (ever) love another like i love Lily
i wasn’t sure if i wanted to lose myself again after i just got myself back
i wasn’t sure if i could be a good mother to two since sometimes i feel like i’m not even being a good mother to one
then for the past two weeks my body was acting all funny
signs of pms but times 100
i thought, maybe?
could i be?
and the feeling of excitement over the possibility of being pregnant returned
the picture you see above is from this morning
i’m not pregnant
but when i went to bed last night and when i woke up this morning i wanted to be
and that just shows me that i can love another like i love Lily
and it shows me that i am ready and have changed my mind
and that makes me happy
(coincidentally, today, three years ago was when we found out we were pregnant with Lily)
Spencer Ruacho
March 2, 2012 @ 8:50 pm
Good for you! I know the feeling exactly (and I’m not pregnant either). Kinda reminds me of that episode of “Friends” where Rachel IS pregnant and discovers that she really did want a baby just by Phoebe telling her that the test was negative. Does that make sense? Oh well! Good luck (you never know, the tests can sometimes be wrong…mine were for the first month of my pregnancy…even the blood test).
Claudia
March 3, 2012 @ 1:05 pm
@Spencer,
great hearing from you! yeah, i also don’t want to necessarily be pregnant past 40 and that comes at the end of the year. good luck to us both!
Carey
March 4, 2012 @ 1:32 am
All my best! You are such a fantastic mama!
Claudia
March 4, 2012 @ 10:35 pm
@Carey,
aw, thanks Carey
Yoly
March 5, 2012 @ 6:06 am
Sending you lots of hugs 🙂
Claudia
March 5, 2012 @ 12:59 pm
@Yoly,
thanks mama 🙂