tomorrow i will be flying up to nyc

and i’m excited

Connie is giving me the vip treatment by sending a car to pick me up at newark airport

and i’m excited

and nervous

and nervous…

as i was falling asleep last night i started getting panic attacks

about flying


i hate fllying

and even though i know that Lily will be ok because duh she will be with Will, this will be the first time that i will really be away from her

the longest we have been without each other was overnight

and that has only happened twice

so it will be great and totally weird all at the same time

this will be my first trip by myself in four years

i’m never by myself


so i’m excited

and nervous

and excited

and nervous….

panic attack