out and about and some thoughts
do you see any similarities to the picture above? Lily picked out all her accessories
i was showered, dressed and on my way out the door by ten yesterday morning
i know that ten is late for most of you but, i’m not usually out by that time these days
Will dropped Lily off at school before nine and i decided to run some errands sans Lily
it worked out perfect since those errands were mostly for her birthday coming up
i got home a few minutes before they did, we all had lunch together, Will left back to work, Lily and i made some more cards for her birthday invites (yes, we are making all the invites) and then we got on the bike and rode to the park where we spent the rest of the afternoon
i realized once we were at the park that ever since we moved into this yellow house in this new (to us) neighborhood that i haven’t ventured out as much
when we were living on the beach we were always doing something. always out and about
i’m not sure if we are home more now because we have so much more room and it doesn’t feel like we have to be out or if i am a bit intimidated by a new place and lost a bit of my sense of adventure
maybe a bit of both…
i was comfortable at the beach. i knew the beach
it was my home for ten years and even though it is small, it felt big
this place IS big
and even though there are definitely things to do, i am not quite certain what and it sort of freaks me out to just be randomly riding around with Lily cause….
what if something happened?
this of course terrifies me even more because this is not what i want to teach Lily
i don’t want her to learn fear of adventure but to learn sense of adventure
as a mother i have learned to push myself more and more just for Lily
to try to not show fear of flying when i’m terrified. to talk and talk when sometimes (and most of the time) i would just much prefer to be quiet. to go swimming in a freezing west virginia river when i would rather be sitting on a rock. to go on a zip line at the park when i would rather not
jeez the things she makes me do…
i have been playing it safe for a long time
i mean, i used to be the girl who would get in her car and just go
go wherever the road took me
now i won’t even get in a car (i don’t drive. surprise!)
have i become scared? have i lost my sense of adventure?
is this what they call growing up?
something happened…
Natasha
October 11, 2012 @ 11:43 am
1) love that tee you have on
2) love Lilly’s purse and it would make a cute bday gift for Olivia
3) sometimes it’s ok to just stay home, believe me, I am the same way, always on the go, little adventures trying to soak up our time together. But sometimes I am just tired and want to sit on the couch. So ease up on yourself 😉 xoxo
Claudia
October 13, 2012 @ 12:39 pm
@Natasha,
thanks mama. the shirt is from anthro. Lily’s bag was a present from my cousin in portugal and yeah, sometimes i just want to sit on the couch, close the curtains and watch reality tv. LOL
Yoly
October 12, 2012 @ 3:05 pm
First off, I’m catching up on all your posts…can you tell?
Looks like Lily is turning into a mini you in the dressing department 🙂 Claudia, I don’t think anything happened to you. I think you just adapted to your beach environment and now it’s time to adapt to your new one. It’s great that you tech Lily not to be fearful of anything, I on the other hand shout it to Lily. Btw, I too hate driving….wonder why? why do you?
Claudia
October 13, 2012 @ 12:35 pm
@Yoly,
well, you have been a busy moving lady but i have missed you around here. can’t wait to see pics of your new place. are you so happy to be in your own home? congrats!
i hate driving because i had two awful accidents where it was a at the wrong place and at the wrong time kind of thing where i was really lucky because i seriously could have died. one of them was in san diego actually. miami drivers don’t motivate me to drive either. if anything, the way people drive around here scares me even more. i think if i lived in a small town or in the country, i would drive. i have not driven since 1994? long time!! why do you hate driving?
Yoly
October 15, 2012 @ 5:07 pm
I too was in a freak accident about two years ago with Lily…I’ve hated driving ever since. Also, I’m a nervous type of girl and all the traffic here is just too much for my brain. But I have to keep driving and not show Lily or my fears, fear. I wish I lived in the Little House days…sigh!