lil muse lily

according to my phone. the normal edition

Claudia 21 February 2013 4 comments

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life these days is quite calm and normal

and i am on most days happy with it

before calm and normal there was chaos and uncertainty

so, normal is good

although let’s be honest, normal can be boring

lately i find myself just mothering, wifeing, cleaning, doing laundry, preparing meals, going to the park, setting up playdates…

and repeat again

and again

which is not say i don’t like my full time job because i do

raising Lily was a decision i made the moment she was born and one i have not regretted

i am also a home body for the most part

however, i can’t remember the last time i/we took a vacation

a real vacation

one where we stayed in a hotel and not with relatives (barcelona 2008?)

we have no future trips planned out to look forward to

no weekend getaways

as happy as i am with normal, i also find myself extremely anxious

i miss adventure and spontaneity

i think i am bored with my every day normal routine

so…. yesterday (because i was anxious and lost sleep the night before over it) i decided to take Lily out to breakfast

i know it’s not a big thing but for us it was out of the norm since we always have breakfast at home (and lunch. and dinner…)

i wish my inspiration wave would return

i think it would help if i was painting

it always helps when i paint

not that mothering wifeing, cleaning and all that is not fulfilling… (a bit of a sarcastic tone)

what do you do when you are in a normal rut?

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in the past:

Mamas & their babies
Support
the weekend
a fairy birthday party. a what i wore post
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4 comments

  1. yolyNo Gravatar
    February 21, 2013 at 8:00 pm

    It must be the soon approaching 40′s that has been making me feel the exact same way. It’s like a record that spins and spins, day after day, no change, same routine and add homeschooling to that list. I also took charge of those yucky feelings this week and went out with Lily to the mall (I excused her and myself from school), I’ve also been cleaning(believe it or not cleaning cleanses my mind and soul) and just enjoying outside time. I hope your days get better. I hope some great art comes out of this. Big hugs :)

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    • ClaudiaNo Gravatar
      February 21, 2013 at 8:57 pm

      @Yoly,

      i think it’s the just monotony of it. day after day. glad i’m not the only one. i feel guilty feeling this way. good for you for taking the day off! xo

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  2. melNo Gravatar
    February 26, 2013 at 12:21 am

    ..well this is weird.. I thought I had commented here when you first wrote this post (I must have forgot the final confirmation step.. again!)… anywho I was saying YES to all of this! Totally feeling your vibe here… and trying to process how to ‘redeem’ what daily rituals can often become like ruts. Yep. I think it has to be a matter of perspective (stepping out of the ‘norm’ like a spontaneous breakfast is a great way to regain perspective) on what matters/ what/why we do what we do…. gaaaahhh, now I’m vortexing into introspection again! lol
    xx
    mel
    needle and nest design

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    • ClaudiaNo Gravatar
      February 26, 2013 at 1:13 pm

      @Mel,

      i think it would really help if i drove because then i wouldn’t rely on just my bike and close spots. i’m getting closer to get the nerve to start driving but it still scares the shit out of me. either way, the little breakfast outing definitely helped. i just feel like on most days/weeks everything i do is kid related. and it’s awesome and terribly boring all at the same time.

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