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have any of you ever had the flu?
if you haven’t, i hope you never do
i wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy
i was down with the flu all of last week
my first time ever getting it
i always thought that the flu was a really bad cold but it is so much more than that
i seriously felt like i was slowly dying
every part of my body ached and every little thing i tried to do (like walk to the bathroom) exhausted me to the point of having to take a nap
i was in bed and on the couch all week
it was all i could do
i finally started feeling better on saturday
this week i have had the worst cough and constant runny nose but at least i can function
it’s been the unhealthiest of years for me already so far
strep throat, mammogram scare, flu…
not such a great start
being down all week got me missing the ocean more than ever
and got me thinking if i would be just as sick if i lived closer to it
which then had me spiraling down into a depression hole
let’s briefly talk about depression shall we?
i have recently come to the realization that i am a bit of a depressed person
and given that depression is hereditary, it doesn’t surprise me (i think both my parents are depressed people)
i do strive on a daily basis to be a happy person and to be positive
some days are more challenging than others
i don’t think i am alone in this
i think it’s a human trait
some people battle with depression more than others
i definitely do
but not enough for me to think i should be on some kind of meds (i’d rather eat 10 bananas a day. they’re supposed to trigger happiness)
when i do feel depressed, i try to snap out of it
but, more often than not, i like to dig that hole nice and deep and sit in there for a while
it’s just what i do
and once i have had enough of my depression hole, i slowly start climbing my way back to the happy light
it’s a pattern i am quite aware of in my forty four years of age now
i used to think that it was my surroundings and where i was living
and although i’m sure those things have an effect on depression, someone once told me that i may never be fully happy living anywhere
those words have been ringing loudly in my head lately
it’s true
no matter where i have lived, i have always had to deal with levels of depression
it’s just something that i have to live with
no matter where i am
because no matter where i am, it is who i am
and that is someone who has to deal with depression
sorry for the heavy friday talk
but it is something that has been on my mind for a while
have yourselves a happy friday and happy weekend friends
i mean it!
that front tooth is taking forever
morning light
that brown paint color is growing on me. especially during golden hour
vitamin d is important you guys
spring is slowly springing
i cannot stand neck tattoos. real or fake. it doesn’t matter. i do not like them
the usual neighborhood suspects
sunday morning reading
sometimes life sucks. it just does
mirari
March 16, 2017 @ 4:43 pm
that’s true, it’s not the place where you live, it’s the way you feel in your inside. but you’ll agree with me that a shiny place helps to feel in a better mood.
this surprised me because you seem to be a happy woman! i’ve always been like “i’m happy when i’m sad”, i enjoy depressive estates, but never negative. when my dad died, almost 10 years ago, i was depressed and i found the exit in sport (and my psy, too, but not in pills). One time i read that, once you get depressed, you’ll risk to be depressed again, but for now i really don’t have any argue to feel bad. but once again, i see clearer when the sun shines!
that book with the fox is part of a collection?
today we saw a bambi death, it was so sad…
Claudia
March 16, 2017 @ 5:57 pm
@Mirari,
yes, a shiny place always helps. and so does being near the ocean. for me. yes, the book with the fox is part of a big collection. i think she is on her eighth one now. bambi deaths are definitely sad. seen a few dead in west virginia