around here
this morning i sit here in our living room with a now cold cup of coffee
Will is at work and Lily is at school
i should probably be on a walk but i am unmotivated to do so and i feel like this space is no longer updated as often as it used to be
making it yet another thing i have slowly let go of
as i sit here surrounded by bare naked winter trees, i am quickly reminded of how much i actually hate winter and all the sad nostalgic feelings that come with it
winter makes me think of cold childhood days in portugal, fights between my parents and difficult teen years in jersey
it’s been five years since i have talked to or seen my dad, three since i have seen my mom and two since i have seen my brother
all my good friends live far away now and although i have Will and Lily, i am the loneliest i have ever been
her last day as a seven year old
her first day as an eight year old
bedroom morning light
small offerings and changes
pink offerings
not quite out. not quite in
joan
the guest room waiting for guests
thanksgiving
#ohdearvisits
Darren
December 7, 2017 @ 1:41 am
â¤ï¸ I love and miss you C â¤ï¸
Claudia
December 7, 2017 @ 11:34 am
@Darren,
i love and miss you D!
mirari
December 11, 2017 @ 6:11 am
the days are very short in winter, and so our souls are. i’ve started taking vitamin-d, i think that most of my gloominess comes from a lack of sun, so i try to compensate this…
at the same time (even if i’m not in the best of humors, neither), read in lines, you don’t have some people of your family close to you, you don’t see them, but maybe they’re toxic for you and it’s better to keep that distance. and, on the other side, you’ve your own family, a little family but enough for you, because they’re the ones you’ve chosen to live with. lots of love
Claudia
December 12, 2017 @ 2:26 am
@Mirari,
winter is hard. so is getting older…. vitamin d might help. thanks!