we’re good over here but i have certainly had my share of unmotivated and uninspired days
which is ok i think
and once i come to peace with it, i allow myself to be what i am feeling and wanting/needing
there is always the next day right?
i’m just trying to breathe and take it one day at a time
i think that’s what we are all trying to do right?
wishing you a peace filled weekend
i spent some days in the basement going through and organizing my storage boxes. found the nineties
i also found this frida kahlo paper doll book i bought for Lily when i think she was still in my belly. had looked for it years ago and couldn’t find it. we both decided it should stay as is and in our frida collection
and speaking of collections, been going through all my nature treasures trying to somehow feel closer to the ocean
there have been lots of delicious meals
tuna nicoise
grilled octopus
a loaded hotdog with chips and radishes. i never liked radishes before
three ingredient banana, peanut butter, cocoa powder muffins
banana bread
strawberry clafoutis
plenty of time being spent in the kitchen these days
mother’s day
on nice days we take lots of walks around the neighborhood
cinco de mayo
it’s been really loud here all day every day with the hotel construction still happening below our backyard. they start jackhammering at 7:30 every morning and don’t stop until the end of the afternoon. despite all the noise that makes me want to crawl out of my skin (and leave this house), i try to create and focus on the quiet corners
flowers still getting me through the day. especially pink ones
our first peony this year
late night shenanigans with Lily when she asks me to brush my hair out
still trying to keep busy through my hands. ordered some self drying terracotta and made my own beads
a distancing visit to her bestie and her chickens to drop off some books
and a visit to her teacher to drop off some flowers for teacher appreciation day
i guess for the sake of having a spring break post like in the previous years, i should do one although, it was very much the opposite of all the previous years due to covid19
it was the same for everyone else
i am aware
a stay at home spring break
not worth much talking about but worth documenting and sharing i guess
this isn’t an easy post to write and i have been putting it off because of not knowing exactly what words to use but I’m just going to say what comes naturally and from the heart
because so many of you are and have been a part of our journey (personally and virtually) William and I thought it was only right to let you know that as of February, we made the decision to separate
after couples therapy and trying to work out our differences on our own, we made the decision that we are better friends to one another than we are husband and wife
not an easy decision but the right decision
for us
we will always be good friends
we will always be family
and we will continue to always be the best parents to Lily that we can be
as for Lily, telling her was the hardest thing we have ever had to do but we have raised an amazingly understanding and loving human who despite her tears, understood and is dealing with everything in the best way possible
this isn’t the end for us
this is just a different ending to the story we originally started twelve years ago
individually and together we love and appreciate all of you and will need your support and love more than ever as we go forward through this new chapter in our lives
it’s tuesday, 8:47am and Lilian is up, dressed and having breakfast at the dining room table while listening to a fractions video her teacher made for her class
spring break is officially over and homeschooling is back on
supposedly they will go back to school on may 18th however, i highly doubt it especially since the last day of school is may 29th
most states have already declared that students will not go back to school
we shall see
anyway, how are you guys doing?
i have reached the highest of highs and the lowest of lows
i’ve gone from getting up and going on my long walk and being happy about spring to wanting to stay in bed all day with my head under a pillow like it was winter
between the quarantine life we are all living right now, life changes that i have not opened up about on here yet, spring break here instead of in miami, pms and the full pink moon in libra, i cried for three straight days last week
i couldn’t help myself
it was all i could do
it was all i wanted to do
once i did, i felt better
sometimes you just have to cry
i do anyway
miami memories with my brother from 2006
from a spring walk
quarantine roots
our art sofa/wall
did a little cleaning in the basement and found this beauty from 1994
how we do sundays sometimes
it’s all about the beets
she gets ready and dressed for homeschooling every morning
made some of these. it had been a long while
William built two boxes and planted some things
after dinner walks
where we would have started our spring break this year. with our K in st. pete
and then in miami at the same building we have stayed the past three years for the remainder of the time
Lily’s crying rabbit that she painted when she was two, was a mood for a few days last week
this week was our third week of homeschooling and today is the fifteenth day and the last for a week due to spring break
homeschooling has been a pleasant experience for us so far
Lily wakes naturally, has breakfast, makes her bed, gets ready and then sits herself down at the dining room table where she opens up her chrome book and begins her school day
her teacher has been wonderful and very present during the whole process
there are plenty of emails from her, assignments on IXL and live video conferences with all the kids
she has truly stepped it up and is a true boss!
while homeschooling during the day, we break things up with snacks, walks, scooter rides, trampoline time and crafts
being at home doing things is not unnatural for Lily and i
it’s what we have always done
ever since she was born and we lived in the apartment in southbeach
there have been times in the past where Lily was curious and asked to be homeschooled and now she is having an opportunity to do so (silver lining)
and i must say that she is pretty good at it
she is disciplined, focused, gets all her work done…
not any different from how she is when at school really
the hardest part is not having the freedom to see or get together with her friends
but facetiming with her besties makes that a little easier too
when school work will be done today, we will officially begin our spring break
in a healthier and freer world, we would be on a plane to st. pete where we would hang out with auntie K for the weekend and then monday rent a car and drive to miami where we would stay at an airbnb in the same building where we have stayed the past two years until next friday
that was the plan anyway
obviously we had to cancel everything and are staying home
i’m trying to be grateful for all the things we have but in all honesty i am having a hard time being here
may better freer times come back sooner than later
yesterday i thought about how the term “social distancing” should be replaced with “physical distancing”
i find that in a way, people are more social than ever before because they finally have the time to be
when i checked in on my girlfriend Connie who lives in los angeles, she told me that online dating is on its peak out there
i see through instagram and facebook that people are more present on there than ever before
and i think in a way, that is a little silver lining to all of this
like so many who are fortunate enough to have food, a comfortable home, good health, the right finances…. we are counting our blessings and trying to find our own silver lining in all of this
for me, it has been waking up naturally with the sunrise again
to create more art
to enjoy having Lilian home all day
to go on nature walks and be thankful for all the open space we have around us
to cook simpler meals
to enjoy and be thankful for our home. all of it
hope you are all well friends
despite everything, i am happy it’s spring
have done some foraging and keep bringing spring inside
slower and later mornings
i keep creating art
i also keep saging the house. not only is sage a great spiritual cleanser, it is also great for purifying your home by getting rid of germs and bacteria
watering day
open window weather
we’ve been having such beautiful spring weather that we have been able to have a handful of meals out here already
and although i know it is way too early, i want to fill this space with all the green babies!
an afternoon dog walk and a puddle reflection
trying to support local businesses
music! it is always playing in our home. now more than ever. the alex cameron pandora station has been a favorite of mine for months now
