everyday life

My first night out since giving birth to Lily

Last night was my first night out since I gave birth to Lily. She is now a little over 3 months old.

The plan was for all 3 of us to got out to dinner for our dear friend Michael’s birthday. However, dinner was set for 8pm and that is Lily’s bed time.

Will and I talked about having Lily take a little nap before 8pm so we could all go but as 7pm approached, Lily had not taken a nap and was pretty cranky.

So, Will suggested for me to go by myself. WHAT!? The suggestion sounded foreign to me. I have not been apart from Lily since I gave birth to her. I’m still only breast feeding so Lily goes where my breasts, I mean, I go. Will knew that I needed this, that I’ve been a little postpartum let’s say. (Identity Crisis)

Thoughts started running through my head. Do I know how to be by myself? What should I wear? Do I know how to dress?

All of the sudden I could wear something that I didn’t have to breast feed in. YAY! I’ve been wanting to wear tights, boots and one of my shift dresses for a while. It was cool enough last night so the decision on what to wear was not so difficult.

I got half dressed while Will put pajamas on Lily and then I breast fed her.

Lily usually falls asleep 15 minutes into the feeding. Of course NOT last night! It was like she knew something was going on. I breast fed her on one breast, I breast fed her on the other and she was still up.

She kept looking at me very attentively while I got dressed probably thinking that she was coming out as well. And why wouldn’t she? She usually does.

As I finished getting ready, Will had her in his arms as she was falling asleep. I kissed them goodnight and headed out the door. Mixed emotions were going through me. I felt guilty, I felt excited.

While in the elevator, I felt like I had left the house missing something. I had no baby, no stroller, no baby Bjorn, no diaper bag, something was missing.

A moment of anxiety came over me. Can I do this? Can I be by myself? Can I go out by myself?

I met Kristin downstairs (she lives in the building next to ours) and for a brief moment it felt like old times. The two of us, single girls heading out for a night out in town. Except these were new times. My husband (new) and my baby (new) were upstairs at home. 🙂

While walking with Kristin to meet the rest of the gang for dinner, I started feeling more and more at ease about being by myself. Then I felt guilty about feeling liberated. LOL

Dinner with friends was wonderful and a much needed “Claudia” time but to come home to my husband Will and baby Lily was priceless.

P.S.- I actually ended up forgetting something. My wallet. It was in the diaper bag.

Here we are at dinner last night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL!! (from left, Eddie, Michael, me, Darren and Kristin)

What toys to get Lily now!????

We are on a search for cool, fun, educational and hopefully, eco-friendly toys for Lily. It seems to me that she has somewhat outgrown the stuffed animals that just don’t do anything. Maybe they will be better for her again later but I feel like she needs something else now. Something that will really grab her attention! If it’s multifunctional even better. We don’t believe in too many toys nor do we have the space for it.

So, what to get?

If any of you moms and dads have any suggestions, we would love to hear some.

Land of Nod seems to have some interesting options.

Here are some that have gotten MY attention. Again, if you know anything about these toys or others, we would love to hear it.

Ok, diaper update

So, Lily has now been using the Huggies Little Snugglers for exactly 24 hours and so far no leaks or spills. Not that we had any leaks with the Pampers….

I’m not sure about the way the Huggies smell. They definitely have a scent to them once they are wet. I can’t quite put my finger on it…wet card board maybe?

Not to sound too gross but I also feel like the Huggies insulate the smell longer when Lily passes gas. (I hate to call her out like that but it does happen. ;))

One thing I do miss about the Pampers is the yellow strip that slowly turns blue as the diaper gets wet. It lets you know how wet the diaper is.

To me the Huggies Little Snugglers are OK. Not great, not horrible. Just OK.

Once this batch of Huggies Little Snugglers is done I think I would like to try the Seventh Generation and the Huggies Pure and Natural. And maybe even go up a size to 3 for 16-28lbs. It seems like she is outgrowing the size 2.

One thing is for sure though, Lily is just as cute in her Huggies as she was in her Pampers! 🙂

P.S.- The shipment from Lucky Vitamin placed on the 8th has not yet arrived. Can you believe that!!?

And the search for new diapers continues…

Last week I wrote a post about DIAPERS where I expressed interest in diapers other than Pampers.

I was so happy that we had found gDiapers on Lucky Vitamin for a good price. Well, today is the 17th and they have not yet arrived.

Lucky Vitamin has proven to be the WORST online service I have yet used to date.

Not only have the gDiapers not yet arrived but, they sent the refills first and then the gPants. Is that not like having the peanut butter and jelly but NO bread?

I am so annoyed at the fact that Lucky Vitamin hasn’t delivered that I’ve given up on gDiapers altogether. Going forward, I will continue to order diapers from Diapers.com. They deliver within 2 days without any special shipping fees.

So, because we needed diapers, Lily and I walked to Publix, our local super market and picked up a box of the Huggies Little Snugglers size 2.

I just changed her diaper and put her in the new Huggies.  I’m not sure….

The Huggies Little Snugglers feel more paper like than the Pampers which feel a lot softer to me.

Also, the Huggies are a bit smaller than the Pampers even though they are both size 2 for 12-18lbs.

I am however very curious about the pocketed back waistband that the Huggies have in order to “help keep in runny messes”.

We shall see, only time and Lily will tell. 😉

Because Lily looks so cute in her diapers, here she is wearing Pampers.

So little yet taking over already

We received Lily’s new interlocking foam floor mat today that we got from Soft Tiles.

It’s wonderful! We have been wanting it for a while so Lily can get more tummy time and have something soft to play on later however, it takes up the whole living room.

Again, living in a small 1 bedroom, we have limited space. Will and I have become experts on creating space where there isn’t any. lol

So until we move (hopefully sooner than later) and until Lily gets her room, we will just all have fun on this mat in the middle of the living room and make do! 🙂

Here is Lily enjoying herself on her Soft Tiles in a bodysuit by Old Navy, pants and socks by babyGap. And all of us having some fun before Lily’s bed time. Lily wears pink pajamas by babyGap.

Not so relaxing bath time

Will, Lily and I live in a 1 bedroom apartment that is only 850sq feet.

It only has 1 small bathroom in which there is a shower, NO bathtub!

Bath time is becoming quite challenging as Lily grows.

Yes, we do have a baby tub for her but it is quite hard to get it out of the shower after it’s been filled with water without getting water all over the floor.

Once she is in it (something she seems to be outgrowing also), she splashes water EVERYWHERE! When I’m done giving her a bath, I look like I jumped in the bath with her with my clothes on.

While I was pregnant with Lily, I would read about how important bath time is because it’s so relaxing. Not so in this place. Did I forget that we didn’t have a bathtub or did I think that one was going to magically appear?

Note to self: When we move, the new place MUST have a bathtub!

Here is Lily in her little tub, a baby shower gift from our friend Elycia.

Little toe sock fuzz

Let’s admit it, there is nothing cute about sock fuzz. On big toes that is. However, little toes with sock fuzz are about the cutest things ever!

The first time I saw sock fuzz in Lily’s toes, I just about cried with happiness. I couldn’t believe little toes could get sock fuzz and how cute they were.

Just wanted to share some little toe sock fuzz with you…. 😉

Baby blood :(

UGH! Yesterday while I was clipping Lily’s nails, she was awake and moving so, I accidentally clipped the corner of her little thumb. 🙁

Clipping her nails has been something that I have dreaded doing from the beginning. Those tiny fingers and those tiny nails….one has to be SO careful!

Once I clipped her thumb, it started to bleed and baby blood started coming out. 🙁

Lily didn’t even feel or notice anything, I of course have yet to recover and felt like the worst mom.

Here is a picture of Lily’s first boo-boo done by none other than ME!

R.I.P Lee McQueen

I just heard that Lee McQueen, the designer for Alexander McQueen passed away and I am truly sad.

As an artist and a fashion lover, I have admired the fashion, vision and talent of Lee McQueen since the early 90’s.

I can honestly say that fashion has lost one of its most innovative artists/designers.

Rest in peace Lee McQueen, fashion will miss you, and so will I.