everyday life

Silver spooning it

While at the supermarket with Lily today, I decided to pick up some Gerber Organic Brown Rice Cereal for Baby. I thought, why not? Let’s try it. I think she is ready.

The box suggests that you mix the cereal with either breast milk (I haven’t pumped so,no), formula (she seems to not like it so, no) or water (can’t hurt). No whole milk until they are around 1 year old.

I filled the bowl with 7-8 tablespoons of cereal, warmed up some water and mixed the 2 together until it was a creamy consistency. Not too runny, not too thick.

I sat Lily in her lounger, put a bib around her neck and gave her the first taste of cereal off the edge of the silver spoon that grandma Hayes gave her for Christmas.

It went down quite smoothly! I dipped the spoon in the bowl and gave her another. She opened her mouth right away when she saw the spoon coming.

She smiled, waved her arms and legs from excitement, YAY! She LOVED it!

She ate it all.

We will continue with the rice cereal for a while as well as breast feeding her and then we will try to mix in some other things like mashed bananas and sweet potatoes.

I am happy that she liked the cereal and is getting ready for food but on the other hand, it just shows me how much bigger she is getting and how my baby is growing up. 🙁

Here is the set up of her first meal Lily eating her first bowl of rice cereal wearing a bodysuit by Old Navy, dress by babyGap and a bib that was a gift.

4 months today

Lily is 4 months old today. I can’t believe it. Time has gone by so fast and yet it seems like I was pregnant such a long time ago.

She is now almost 15lbs and measures 25″.

She can turn over from her back to her tummy and gets super frustrated because she wants to crawl but can’t yet.

She has found her feet and is constantly grabbing them, she loves it when she has no socks on because then she can put her toes in her mouth although apparently she didn’t like the way they tasted yesterday. lol

For the most part she is a serious baby except for when she is home with Will and I and she lets loose.

Her pediatrician told us on thursday that she is as aware as a 6 month old. Go Lily!

Oh, and she’s looking more and more like her daddy Will every day.

Here she is on the 7th of every month . I got a little choked up going through the months.

In November, Lily wears a jumpsuit and hat both by babyGap. In December, Lily wears a bodysuit by babyGap. In January, Lily wears diapers by Pampers and fleece booties by Zutano. In February, Lily wears a dress and tights both by Zutano. Today, in March, Lily wears a bodysuit by Lucky Finn, a gift from our friend Debbie.

Good little patient

On Thursday we took Lily to the pediatrician for her Polio shot.

We know that vaccines are a heated debate. We respect everyone’s personal decision however, we find them necessary. We did choose to do a shot at a time just in case there were some allergies or major side effects. It required more trips to the pediatrician but we felt safer that way.

Ugh, every time we go it breaks my heart but I must say, Lily is SO good that it’s getting easier.

She just hangs out, lets her pediatrician do what she has to do and then when it comes time for the shot, she just cries a little when the needle first pokes her. This time she cried even less than the others. 😉

Here is Lily waiting for her shot wearing shirt, leggings, socks and shoes all by babyGap.

Shopping. Oh, it’s quite the experience!

It was so beautiful out today that I decided to grab Lily and the stroller and head down to Zara to check out their Spring collection.

Zara is about a good 30 minutes away by foot, fast foot that is. Lily fell asleep half way through which was good because sometimes she can get a little fussy in the stroller. She seems to prefer the Baby Bjorn these days but she’s getting too heavy and the destination was too far today.

After scanning Zara and having grabbed a few items to take in the fitting room, I thought “Where are ALL the Spring colors? Where is the yellow, pink, orange, green?”. Everything in there was so muted which is fine but my mood has been muted, I wanted/needed a pick-me-up.

Once in the fitting room with a now awake Lily, I noticed that she was not only awake but she also had a dirty diaper.

Thankfully, we were in a BIG fitting room that had a big bench where I changed Lily. It stunk up the whole place but there was nobody else back there. lol

Ok, with her diaper changed, I placed her back in the stroller and started to try on some clothing.

Nothing was looking right. The shirts were too tight because my breasts are HUGE and proceed to get bigger every week, the pants…my butt isn’t ready for those yet, the cardigans didn’t do anything. Ugh!

So there I was in the fitting room not feeling so great when Lily started to get fussy. She was hungry. I thought to myself: “Now I’m going to have to breast feed her in here too.”

I handed the unwanted items (all of them with the exception of a dress) to the sales clerk and asked him if he minded that I stay a bit longer because I had to breast feed. He was so nice, he didn’t mind.

I ended up purchasing the dress. It’s an over the head dress so I probably won’t even be able to wear it for a while because I can’t breast feed in it but, oh well.

Conclusion: shopping for me with Lily by myself is not so much fun. Not yet anyway.

A little bit of lipstick goes a long way…

After my haircut on tuesday put an extra skip on my walk, I decided to go get some new lipstick as well.

I put Lily in the Baby Bjorn and we walked over to Macy’s.

It had been a while since I wore lipstick. Had been wearing glosses for a while but since Lily had been born, I hadn’t used anything other than lip balm. I mean, how could I constantly kiss Lily with stuff on my lips?

We ended up at the Benefit counter which had pretty colors but not too many so it wasn’t too overwhelming. I tried a few while Lily was busy looking in the mirror (she smiles at herself).

I settled on Dessert First (yummy, dessert!).

With Dessert First on my lips, Lily and I left Macy’s and now, I had yet another extra skip on my walk. I felt good! It’s amazing what lipstick can do.

I’m feeling pretty good these last couple of days. New haircut, new lipstick, it’s feeling like ME again.

So I’m not able to kiss Lily as much while we are out but, her cheeks probably need a break anyway.

Oh! by the way, inside the lipstick package there was a little note. This is what it said:

(Maybe it will increase the libido also…. ;))

All pregnancy traces almost all gone

Yesterday I had to write about postpartum because I was feeling it really bad however, yesterday’s post should have been about how exactly a year ago yesterday, we found out we were pregnant.

Exactly a day after Will proposed to me, I took a pregnancy test and…..PREGNANT! It was one of the happiest moments, specially after a very sad miscarriage on Christmas day, December 25 of 2008.

Here we are exactly 1 year later, married (HOORAY!) and with a healthy baby Lily (tears of happiness).

It hasn’t exactly been a smooth journey but, compared to some others, we have been very fortunate.

I had a wonderful pregnancy. Wasn’t sick once. Worked until 1 week before my due date. Was active the whole 9 months, walking, swimming (one of the perks of living in South Beach), riding my bike Sally.

We had an amazing birthing experience. All natural! It was just Will, me, our wonderful midwife Mary, Mary’s assistant, my mom and Will’s mom.

We entered the birthing center at 10:30pm on November 06 2009 and Lily was born at 2:37am on November 07 2009. I couldn’t have asked for an easier birth.

It is now March, almost 4 months after Lily being born and all pregnancy traces are almost all gone.

The linea negra, just a very faint line below my belly button. The pregnancy weight, just a few more pounds to shed. The gorgeous, healthy and full pregnancy hair is gone and as of yesterday…cut.

Everything, light postpartum aside, is slowly going back to normal.

In honor of everything that happened within the last year, here are some pictures of how things occurred. Starting with a very romantic engagement.

A little bit of postpartum but a whole lot of hope

Let me start off by saying that I am not afraid of saying the word postpartum and hate the fact that most people look at it and excuse it in an awful way like P.M.S.

According to the wikipedia the exact definition of postpartum is: Postpartum depression (PPD), also called postnatal depression, is a form of clinical depression which can affect women, and less frequently men, after childbirth. Studies report prevalence rates among women from 5% to 25%, but methodological differences among the studies make the actual prevalence rate unclear. Among men, in particular new fathers, the incidence of postpartum depression has been estimated to be between 1.2% and 25.5%.[1] Postpartum depression occurs in women after they have carried a child, usually in the first few months. Symptoms include sadness, fatigue, insomnia, appetite changes, reduced libido, crying episodes, anxiety, and irritability. Current data suggests that 5 to 9 percent of women will develop postpartum depression[citation needed], but less than one in five of these women will seek professional help. It is sometimes assumed that postpartum depression is caused by a lack of vitamins [2], but studies tend to show that more likely causes are the significant changes in a woman’s hormones during pregnancy[citation needed]. On the other hand, hormonal treatment has not helped postpartum depression victims. Many women recover because of a support group or counseling.[3][4]

That said, it’s perfectly normal to go through what I’m going through. Right? Let’s go through the check off list.

Sadness. It’s light but I’ve had my moments. So, CHECK.

Fatigue. I’m not getting enough sleep because Lily wakes up 3-5 times during the night. CHECK.

Insomnia. Sometimes (like last night) at night after a feeding, I can’t fall back asleep and I just lie there crying because of how tired I am. CHECK.

Appetite changes. I think I eat more now than I did when I was pregnant. I tend to go towards food when I’m depressed. CHECK.

Reduced libido. Yup. No interest in sex whatsoever. CHECK.

Crying episodes. I don’t get enough sleep, I’m tired, I hardly get any time for myself. They’ve happened. CHECK.

Anxiety. Not so much.

Irritability. Again, doesn’t lack of sleep and rest cause irritability? CHECK.

It shouldn’t be so alarming for a mom to say she is going through postpartum. After all, in a way, it seems like the normal thing to go through after giving birth. I mean, how could we not?

Just like everything, there are however different levels of postpartum and different ways people deal with it.

This is the way I’m dealing with mine. To write about it here, recognize it and to just deal with it. It’s not like I hate my life or Lily. I am a very fortunate person and have a wonderful life, husband and baby. And, for the most part, I am a happy person. However, things did change very fast as well as did the hormones.

Sometimes I think that maybe I wasn’t yet ready for motherhood because I feel selfish wanting “me” time. But is it selfish to want to be healthy, well rested and to look good and well taken care of as I did before?

How does that saying go? “A happy mother is a happy baby”?

Then I look at Lily and I can’t imagine my life without her. (tears) I love her. And I love Will. I just don’t love myself the way I used to and that makes me feel like I am not loving them as much as I could. It’s hard to love someone if you don’t love yourself.

Everything has been so rewarding lately so how can I feel so…so…old and tired? I feel so old and tired.

At the end of it all, there are worst days and there are better days and just like everything, this too will pass.

RIGHT!???

In honor of feeling better and normal or better yet, better than normal, I went to get my hair cut today. So here’s to the positive side of things! 😉

Me with my new haircut and Lily wearing a t-shirt, pants and shoes by babyGap and bodysuit by Old Navy.

One will do for now

This past saturday we took off to Pine Island, FL to go visit dear friends of ours. Pine Island is about a 2-3 hour ride away from Miami.

Before leaving the house, while I gathered all of our things, Will made a comment about how it now took twice as long and as much stuff to go anywhere. “HA! and you want another one” I told him.

It’s true, it does take twice as long and twice as much stuff to go anywhere. But, it will take even longer and much more stuff when/if there will be another.

And I say when/if because right now, as much as I would love to have another, I can’t even think about it and (excuse me) my vagina hurts just hearing about the thought of it.

We packed ourselves and our things in the car and were smoothly cruising when Lily awoke from her nap because she had to do the BIGGEST bowel movement.

She has made it her tradition to do so as soon as we start on any long car trip. The same thing happened in December when we started driving to West Virginia.

As I sat next to her in the back seat, I looked at Will with fear in my face and commented on how it did not sound or smell good. And sure enough, as I peaked underneath her leg, it was EVERYWHERE! All over her clothes and the car seat.

It’s a good thing that by now, I know her and I packed plastic bags (for dirty clothes) and 3 other changes although we were only going for an overnight trip.

In the back seat I changed a very messy Lily and cleaned the car seat and thought to myself….imagine 2? Very brave are the ones who do it.

So, with a clean and happy Lily, we carried on with our driving and made it to Pine Island safely and without any other messes.

We had a wonderful time and I think I will enjoy Lily for now and not worry about the second one until much later. My clock is ticking though…..

Here are some highlights of our trip. In order Lily wears cardigan and leggings by babyGap, dress by Old Navy and hat gift from Natasha. Romper, polka dot shirt and shoes by babyGap, polka dot tights by Zutano.

Another diaper update

We went through the Huggies Little Snugglers quite fast. There was one major leak accident while we were out. Something that had not happened with the Pampers Swaddlers.

What diapers to use next? We opted for the Seventh Generation in size 3.

They are definitely very “green” and earthy. They’re not nearly as soft or cute as the others but they do the job. Unlike the reviews we read, Lily did not get any diaper rash although they seem to not absorb the number 2’s as well.

However, because they are so “green”, I feel like I’m packing Lily up in cardboard and shipping her somewhere every time I change her diaper.

As environmentally friendly as I like to be, I think I will stick with either Huggies or Pampers. And because we are so “green” in so many other aspects of our daily lives, I don’t feel like I will go to “green” hell for it. 😉

Here is Lily in her Seventh Generation diapers. The only thing cute about these diapers is….Lily!