12/52. twenty nineteen

“a portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week, in 2019”

Lily

when she turned seven years old, and we were then living in this brick house, we gifted her a trampoline for her birthday

sadly she had to part with it when we moved to the castle house because there was no room for it in that yard

this past saturday she and William put together a brand new trampoline (a sixteen footer)

let’s just say that the trampoline is our asheville swimming pool

it’s where Lily spends most of her time when it is nice out and it is where all the kids in the neighborhood also like to gather

a much needed outdoor toy

happy monday friends!

10/52. twenty nineteen

“a portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week, in 2019”

Lily

on sundays she takes a nice long bath at the end of the day and washes her hair

she then asks me to braid it into small braids

on monday, before going off to school, she undoes all the braids and is left with a crimped out mane for the rest of the week

happy monday friends

around here. january

i once heard that it takes half the time of a relationship to get over that said relationship once it’s over

if that’s true, which i sort of found it to be after my divorce to my first husband, i still have four more years left to get over our break up with miami

i am not going to lie, it has been a struggle

especially during this eternal winter (and the previous ones)

there is still not a lot that sparks joy for me in this town surrounded by mountains

there are days when i curse ever having moved here and i miss everything about miami (minus the humidity and the roaches)

since living in ashveille for the past three years, i have never felt so lonely and depressed (and angry)

sure there are good days

but it truly feels like they don’t outweigh the bad days

regardless, i try to push through and i function

i smile, i parent, i get house chores done…. i do like i’m supposed to and expected to

some days better than others (like all of us i suppose)

that sad feeling deep within me of not being where i want to be never leaves me though

sunny days help lift my mood

but i have realized that i am a tropical girl at heart (regardless of complaining about the humidity when living in miami)

i like tropical greens best

and tropical fruits and foods to go with it

i prefer summer layers to winter layers

i am inspired by (and more motivated by) bright colors rather than the sad browns and greys that surround me for far too long every single year living here

when i visit past miami posts, i am reminded of how full of color and friends our lives were there

family life aside, everything here takes so much effort for me

i am of course the only one who feels this way

both William and Lily are thriving here

and because they are thriving the way they are, it makes the thought of moving selfish and impossible

in the meanwhile i am going to keep trying to just do

and to look forward to those tropical greens and sunshine which are coming for spring break

happy friday friends

the first day of a new year

my favorite rainbow

a kitchen moment with ginger, her favorite red panda

there are many faces and moods to this wild nine year old

this guy who i wish still had a fenced in yard

the two of them together tho

a favorite room and where i spend most of my time

golden girl during golden hour

a bright kitchen window sill corner

i still love orchids

morning light

afternoon light

sunday bath. a sunday ritual

a favorite reading corner

a snow day

a snow day sewing project

rebel girl. nine so far

from the age seven to eight she grew almost four inches

from the age eight to nine she grew just a little over three inches

in our kitchen the other day she told me that she hates being a kid and that she can’t wait to be a teenager

we feel differently about this because i can certainly wait for her to be a teen

although, i have to tell you, she already very much acts like a teen these days

there is attitude

and mood swings

her favorite color is black

she hates the color pink

her body is changing and we talked all about its future changes with her pediatrician at her check up this year (period included although Lily has known about it for quite some years now)

her style is very much her own style and she knows quite well how she sees herself and how she wants to put herself out there to the world

like she always has

since she was very little actually

yet, despite all of these pre-teen growing signs, she still climbs into my lap every morning after she eats her breakfast and asks for snuggle cuddles in her bed before going to sleep at night

and all i can do is be there for her and try to hold onto every moment because time really does go by too fast

happy friday friends


8/52. twenty nineteen

“a portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week, in 2019”

Lily

she got to spend the whole weekend at her bestie’s house while William and i had ourselves a weekend in nashville

something we have not done since Lily was less than one year old

happy monday friends!

hope you all had a great weekend

6/52. twenty nineteen

“a portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week, in 2019”

Lily

living her best life outside in seventy degree february weather

we had a heat wave last week

we realize that it is due to climate change but we are not complaining

not about the break from the cold anyway

happy monday friends