Feels like forever ago

Yesterday while Lily was falling asleep to nap, I thought about how long it had been since I breast fed her.

Then, I started counting months and realized that she is only 16 months, she weaned herself off at 12 months so, it had only been 4 months!

It feels like forever ago.

When it happened I was worried that I would lose that bond with her.

That she and I wouldn’t have those wonderful quiet moments anymore.

I had no reason to worry.

She and I have many wonderful quiet moments and we are closer than ever.

My little ratinha is growing fast but she still needs her mama. 🙂

me, Lily and the moon

Weaning herself off naturally

For the past months Lily has been breast feeding only 3 times a day.

In the very early morning when she wakes up which usually makes her fall back asleep for another hour or so, in the afternoon before her nap and at night before she goes to sleep.

Through the months, while she breast feeds, she has slowly weaned herself off.

While she is breast feeding, she feeds less and less each time.

Last night, as quickly as she latched on, she latched off and sat up wanting to just be put in her crib.

I get it, she is showing me she is no longer a baby. 🙁

She no longer needs to be breast fed.

I am thankful that I got to breast feed for 1 year.

I am thankful that my body naturally produced enough milk to naturally feed my baby. No formula ever needed. (I’m not knocking formula)

Goodbye breast feeding. It was wonderful while it lasted!

Here are some sweet breast feeding moments.

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November 07 2009. the day Lily was born


My dearest Lily,

I can’t believe you are 1 today.

This past year has gone by way too fast, it feels like just yesterday you were born.

All those months that I was pregnant with you, I would day dream about what you would be like.

Never in a million years could I have imagined you or dreamed you to be as amazing as you are.

You are just wonderful!!

From the very moment you were born, I knew you were a force to be reckoned with.

You latched and started breast feeding as soon as you were born.

Right away you seemed older than you should be.

You are so smart.

You are so funny.

You have never looked confused.

You have such a great sense of self.

Sometimes I think you know more than I know…

As your mother, I can only promise you that I will try to be the best mom I can be to you.

I can only promise you to be the best friend that I can be to you.

I only hope that we can forever be friends.

I love you my blue eyed cheeky-cheeky.

Happy first birthday!!!!

Love you,


Stuffy Lily

Lily has the worst runny and stuffy nose right now. (not sure if it’s because she is teething or if she caught a light cold)

The last 2 nights and days have been really hard and challenging.

I feel so bad for her (and us). Every time she falls asleep, she wakes shortly after because she can’t breath due to all the mucus.

It’s horrible!

Last night she woke up a bunch of times and was running a fever so, we finally gave her some infant Ibuprofen.

It helped. She finally got some much needed sleep.

All she wants is to be held and to breast feed.

Hopefully she will get better soon.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND EVERYONE!! (and if you can, please keep on voting. thank you! ;))

a not feeling-so-good Lily

lounging on the bed. i love it when she kisses my forehead

an early evening walk just to give her some fresh air

and a SHOUT OUT to…


Lily is 7 months today.

I can’t believe how fast time is going by. I want to freeze time but I know I can’t.

At 7 months, Lily has 2 bottom teeth, is crawling, wants to walk, loves the water, loves books and can now flip pages by herself, eats all sorts of organic homemade food and only breast feeds 2-3 times a day, she sleeps almost through the entire night (goes to bed at 8pm, wakes once during the night and wakes up at 7am.), she is smiling more and more every day and baby talks a lot also!

She is such an amazing baby and we can’t imagine our lives without her.

We love you Lily.


Here is Lily at the beach yesterday. Lily wears a hoodie by Old Navy.

Breast feeding JAWS

Lily has 2 teeth on the bottom now. And let me tell you that when they first one came in, breast feeding was no pleasure!

Before her first tooth showed up, due to teething, every time I would breast feed Lily, she would clamp down on my nipple and pull it as her head would turn to the side. (Not fun!)

Of course I would ask her not to do it but this didn’t have much effect at all.

Then, that tooth came in and everything changed. I actually thought I had to stop breast feeding right then and there.

She bit down so hard on my right nipple once, she actually made it bleed. I saw stars!!

I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to scream (even though that’s what I really wanted to do) so I wouldn’t startle her.

I quickly remembered what Naeemah (our birthing classes teacher) recommended to us mommies when the teeth would come in.

So, I pinched Lily’s nose and she let go of my nipple.

I was terrified. Will she do it every time she breast feeds? Can I stand it? Will I get used to it (NO!)? Do I have to give up breast feeding already? (Sad.)

The next time i was getting ready to breast feed Lily, I was scared. I burst out in cold sweats. I could feel the fear my nipples were sending off.

She did it again. She bit me. Again I saw stars. Again I pinched her nose and asked her not to bite.

Every time I went to breast feed Lily, I would burst into cold sweat. Breast feeding was no longer something soothing and pleasurable. Not for me anyway.

It was like looking at JAWS. That little tooth was like a shark’s mouth full of pointy and sharp teeth. When it was time to breast feed, I was as scared of Lily as I am of sharks.

Then I thought about fear and dogs. (Not that I’m comparing Lily to a dog)

Dogs sense fear. And often when they do, that’s when they bite.

I decided to try to stop being scared when it came time to breast feed. It took a lot of preparation but, I would calm myself (and my nipples) down before Lily would latch on and….it worked!

She stopped biting me while breast feeding. 🙂

I’m not sure if it was the nose pinching, me asking her to please not bite, or the fact that she finally realized that she had a tooth in her mouth but for now she is no longer biting me.

I hope it stays that way.

Here is my little JAWS, I mean Lily with her killer teeth. 😉

Will I…

Will I remember everything?

Will I remember how much you love to look at the palm tree that stands outside our bedroom window and watch the leaves blow in the wind?

Will I remember how feisty you are getting now at your 6.5 months of age?

Will I remember that smile you now give me that shows me you finally really know who I am and that you love me?

Will I remember that you still don’t really care much for the moon but you love the water?

Will I remember that I hum you to sleep and your dad sings to you instead?

Will I remember that ever since you were born, when I breast feed you, you close your hand into a fist and place it between my breasts?

Will I remember how much we love to lie in our bed in the afternoons when it’s hot and cuddle/play?

Will I remember that I wake up countless times in the middle of the night to check up on you even though you sleep in the crib right next to us?

Will I remember how much I love to watch you sleep?

Will I remember how dark your hair was when you were born and now it’s almost blond?

Will I remember that you first liked avocado and then not all?

Will I remember that you want to be everywhere we are?

Will I remember that you strongly dislike to wear shoes and you will rub your heels together until they are off?

Will I remember that as little as you are, you have a BIG and strong personality?

Will I remember that you come to the computer every time you want to watch Elmo and India Arie sing the ABC’s?

Will I remember that every time you cup my face with your tiny hands I want to cry?

Will I remember that no matter how many toys you have around you, you want what I have in my hands?

Will I remember that from the time you were born every time we would put you on your stomach you would get frustrated trying to crawl and now that you can crawl you get frustrated because you want to walk?

Will I remember that when we go to the park you are fascinated by the bigger kids chasing the pigeons and I can see in your face you can’t wait to do the same?

Will I remember how much your dad and I wished for you and now here you are?

Will I…?

Here is our Lily with that “look”. Lily wears a dress by babyGap.

Lily says NO to the bottle.

We have now  tried the bottle with formula twice and both times were unsuccessful.

I got the Born Free bottles and Bright Beginnings organic milk based formula and it was a NO go! I don’t think it was so much the taste of the formula because she actually drank some of it, I think it’s the fact that she doesn’t know what to do with the silicone nipple. The same thing happened when we tried several pacifiers because my nipples needed a break.

The minute the silicone nipple goes in her mouth, her tongue rolls all around it, pushes against it, she just doesn’t know what to do with it. After minutes of me being persistent, she starts getting mad from frustration.

Now, some may argue that this is happening because we are only now trying to introduce the bottle to her however, we tried the pacifiers when she was only days old and the same thing happened. She just doesn’t like the silicone nipple! Can I blame her? The minute she was born, she was put on my breast and she latched on right away. My nipples are all she knows.

In a way I wish it was the formula she didn’t care for because her not liking the nipple means that it is pointless for me to pump. And therefore I am limited to how long I can stay away from her.

So in the meanwhile we will just breastfeed. Breastfeeding has gotten much easier now that we got through the first month. And since I am now a full time mom, I have all the time in the world to breastfeed. 🙂