friends

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i used to look forward to fridays

now i only look forward to the fridays she will return home to me

today she leaves to go stay with William for a week

we had a good busy week though

learning pod, ballet, walks, home cooked meals, skin wars, rupaul’s drag race…

looking forward to next friday

happy weekend friends

the weather is changing. and so is the light

it’s all about the eggs lately

we baked a double layer blue and pink funfetti cake just for fun

my two hibiscus trees have been blooming all day every day this week

lunch al fresco

ballet. every monday, wednesday and saturday morning

#mamaandlilianfollybeachtrip2020

it’s saturday morning and i’m writing this post in bed while sipping coffee

it’s quiet

Lilian is at William’s for the week

this will be our second time sharing her this way since she and i moved into our casa azul

our life is different these days

the same in many ways but different

it’s been a while since i have come here to share anything other than project fifty two posts

and i am not sure if this morning is the time to share the emotions of going through a separation and having to start over again on my own

this morning i mostly just want to share pictures from our week at folly beach during the first week of back to school

summer was certainly different this year

for everyone i guess

i’m thankful that we were able to get some beach time

it had been since february since i/we had seen the ocean

the beach is still where i feel my best and where i feel we are our happiest

until next time. hopefully sooner than later

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haven’t come here in a while to share what we have been up to lately

there have been creeks, swimming holes, pools, neighborhood quarantine hangs but most importantly, mine and Lily’s move into our new west asheville home

the end of a chapter and the beginning of a new one is always bitter sweet and i am just trying to not get overwhelmed and just take everything one day at a time

Lily is being super helpful during this move/transition and although she seems on the upside of things, i know it has to be hard for her

both William and i have reached out to recommended child therapist in order to provide her with a neutral space to share her feelings and thoughts but have had no luck booking one because none of them are taking new patients at this covid time

in the meanwhile all we can do is move forward and keep an eye on her and talk about all that we are feeling/thinking

it feels like the most non-summer summer ever but, one day at a time right?

happy friday and happy weekend friends

portugal childhood beach memories

santa fe memories from last year

monument valley memories from last year

a day at a time… with coffee

all the pretty flowers

i now have three of these

post dinner family walks

helping with dinner prepping

she has painted some pretty awesome things

found out this week that school for her this year will start with 100% remote learning from home

midnight hole

homni creek with her bestie

homni creek with the neighborhood girls

i still prefer and miss the ocean but i am just trying to hang in there you guys…

four weeks of ballet intensive went by way too fast

move in day

#mamaandlilyashevillecasaazul

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hi friends

how are you all holding up?

we’re good over here but i have certainly had my share of unmotivated and uninspired days

which is ok i think

and once i come to peace with it, i allow myself to be what i am feeling and wanting/needing

there is always the next day right?

i’m just trying to breathe and take it one day at a time

i think that’s what we are all trying to do right?

wishing you a peace filled weekend

i spent some days in the basement going through and organizing my storage boxes. found the nineties

i also found this frida kahlo paper doll book i bought for Lily when i think she was still in my belly. had looked for it years ago and couldn’t find it. we both decided it should stay as is and in our frida collection

and speaking of collections, been going through all my nature treasures trying to somehow feel closer to the ocean

there have been lots of delicious meals

tuna nicoise

grilled octopus

a loaded hotdog with chips and radishes. i never liked radishes before

three ingredient banana, peanut butter, cocoa powder muffins

banana bread

strawberry clafoutis

plenty of time being spent in the kitchen these days

mother’s day

on nice days we take lots of walks around the neighborhood

cinco de mayo

it’s been really loud here all day every day with the hotel construction still happening below our backyard. they start jackhammering at 7:30 every morning and don’t stop until the end of the afternoon. despite all the noise that makes me want to crawl out of my skin (and leave this house), i try to create and focus on the quiet corners

flowers still getting me through the day. especially pink ones

our first peony this year

late night shenanigans with Lily when she asks me to brush my hair out

still trying to keep busy through my hands. ordered some self drying terracotta and made my own beads

a distancing visit to her bestie and her chickens to drop off some books

and a visit to her teacher to drop off some flowers for teacher appreciation day

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so… the coronavirus…

although there have been no reported cases in our area, the board of commissioners declared a state of emergency in our county

these are testing times

anxious times

and to think we almost went to rome for spring break

hope you and all your loved ones are well

all is good on our side

happy friday friends

i’ve been going on my long morning walks again and to be honest, the biggest motivation is getting to see all the tiny signs of spring on her way

when my mom sends me pictures of herself

a constant work in progress. emotionally. mentally. physically

saturday morning

a family night out at the ballet

a sunday morning with beignets and friends

a sunday afternoon

this week’s warm and sunny weather felt like true hope that spring really is around the corner

after school walks with ice cream

closer than an ocean, where i go sometimes to soothe my mind

hanging in there

when it’s seventy degrees and your bestie comes over after school

practicing her arabesque for ballet auditions tomorrow in order to make it to pre pro

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change is coming

sometimes you make change happen

sometimes change happens to you

this time, change is happening and i will just have to hold on, be strong and hope for the best

winter out of our bathroom window

the last of february out of our bedroom window

the beginning of march out of our kitchen window

a two hour delay kind of look

a snowy saturday

when i wake up starving

a bright kitchen corner on a gloomy rainy day. it’s been that kind of winter

but every now and again the sun comes out

wednesdays with her bestie. post school, pre gymnastics

the always inspiring marc jacobs

west palm beach memories

carolina beach memories

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nothing too eventful to report about life this past week

it was a really cold one (around 18 degrees every morning) so it was spent mostly in the house and in the car running errands

by thursday S.A.D. was definitely hitting me hard and winter had already gotten the best of me

same shit every year/winter, right?

happy friday friends

a visit to the asheville art museum since its big renovation/reopening

really cold but pretty sunrises

speaking of cold mornings…

rainbows

stitching, stitching, stitching…

said farewell to this one and sent her off to her new home

ronda memories

the most tropical yet completely unnatural breakfast for freezing weather

i’m going to continue to cheer for spring

a sunny corner

a reading corner

sunset

st. pete memories

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is it spring yet?

just kidding (not really)

although i can’t complain too much about winter due to the warm weather we had this week, i’m still going to because we are in the thick of it aren’t we?

and well, winter just depresses me

it’s cold, dark, the trees are bare, there are no flowers, no color… it’s the total opposite of who i am and what i love

but you all know this already

no need to rant about it

happy friday friends!

this past holiday season was a busy one. there was the nutcracker

a girls night out

a little party to put together the music list for new year’s eve

christmas in west virginia

sadly as of three years ago his passing is also part of christmas (and as of this past christmas, his sister’s passing as well)

a trip to st pete florida

new year’s eve

new year’s day

a playdate with an old friend

naps

a visit to winter lights at the arboretum and a farewell to the holiday season

we went to see the movie cats

new year cleansing

back to school

back to ballet

what our wednesdays look like post school, pre gymnastics

my high school friend sent me books he no longer wanted but knew i would love and cherish

new green baby hanging

where i spend most of my days

the beginning of a new art adventure and the sick chronicles

already cheering for spring (sorry not sorry winter)

#turning47instpete

two years ago (now three years ago) i decided to spend my birthday in los angeles california with one of my oldest girlfriends Connie

this year (now last year) i decided to spend it in st pete florida with my other oldest girlfriend K

sometimes the mom guilt still tries to take over and keep me from doing and going places without my family but when it comes to birthday, spending it somewhere warm, tropical, in the sunshine, with palm trees and near the ocean is my preferred way to spend it

it’s not surprising

i was born in angola, luanda

a warm and tropical place by the sea

happy friday friends!

ps- i’ve been sick all week. sicker than i have been since i had the flu three years ago. so much so that i was convinced that i had the flu again. or pneumonia. so i went to the doctor yesterday. i have neither. i have a nasty virus that is going around that is taking forever to leave. stay healthy!

arrival cocktails

my kind of wall. and floors

the best breakfast i could have asked for on my last day as a 46 year old

a wonderful and unexpected beach day

that last dip of the decade

a pre birthday sunset

birthday breakfast. happy 47 to me

47

color. always color

until next time st pete. i kind of love you….

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it has felt like a really long week for some reason

maybe because we are all sort of under the weather just trying to push on through?

maybe because by this time we are all run down and need break?

maybe because it’s been extra cold and rainy?

yes, all of that

next week will be the last week of school for winter break and we are all ready for it

happy friday friends

mornings

morning dog walks in twenty degree weather

afternoon dog walks

the tree is up. now wake me up when it’s april

the big crafty was a success

shades of blue

fuel for a sick day home from school

george michael forever

Lily dropping off some merch at garden party

the end of the day

all i want for christmas is summer

the last full moon of the decade. hard to believe