it was a tough last week for this little one
she was so sick
aside from her runny nose, she is back to her fresh self
Lily wears top- the children’s place. shorts- babygap. sandals- salt water. long necklaces- she made the pink one with a little help from me and the brown one was an african souvenir from D
and i’m off to nyc!
i will not be bringing my laptop so i will actually be taking a little blogcation
shocking right?
i wish you all a wonderful weekend
see you next week!!!!
sometimes my head goes where it shouldn’t go
and i start thinking about the fact that even though i don’t really feel it, i’m an older mom
i’m almost forty you know
and you are not even three
and then i start thinking that by the time you get out of high school, i will be almost sixty (hold me back, heart attack)
and if you don’t have children until you are in your thirties, i might not even meet your children
and that just makes me want to break down and cry
because i want to meet your children
because i have no doubt that if one day you choose to be a mom, you will be the best mom
and i want to see you as a mom
but maybe i won’t have a chance to
and that just about crushes me like nothing else in the world
and you don’t have a sibling
yet
and i feel like you should have one
cause what if something happens to pai and i in our seventies and you are left all alone in your thirties?
that’s awful young
and then before i let my head get really crazy out there, i have to bring it back
and make it see that we are here
and i am only thirty nine
and you are only two and a half
and i love you like noone i have ever loved before in my life
and i have to just breath and take everything one moment at a time
otherwise i will go crazy and not be able to go on
i love you
let’s take it slow,
your mommy
shirt&booties- f21. necklace- icreate. belt- gap (old). pants- zara (old)
how about some post sick face for ya?
extra spicy bloody
when Lily does not have her hair “done” she likes her hair a certain way
and that is a shake, sweep one hand through one side, the other hand through the other kind of way
if either Will or i try to mess with her by tucking her hair behind her ear or whatever, she will just shake and sweep, sweep
lol
