around here. january
i once heard that it takes half the time of a relationship to get over that said relationship once it’s over
if that’s true, which i sort of found it to be after my divorce to my first husband, i still have four more years left to get over our break up with miami
i am not going to lie, it has been a struggle
especially during this eternal winter (and the previous ones)
there is still not a lot that sparks joy for me in this town surrounded by mountains
there are days when i curse ever having moved here and i miss everything about miami (minus the humidity and the roaches)
since living in ashveille for the past three years, i have never felt so lonely and depressed (and angry)
sure there are good days
but it truly feels like they don’t outweigh the bad days
regardless, i try to push through and i function
i smile, i parent, i get house chores done…. i do like i’m supposed to and expected to
some days better than others (like all of us i suppose)
that sad feeling deep within me of not being where i want to be never leaves me though
sunny days help lift my mood
but i have realized that i am a tropical girl at heart (regardless of complaining about the humidity when living in miami)
i like tropical greens best
and tropical fruits and foods to go with it
i prefer summer layers to winter layers
i am inspired by (and more motivated by) bright colors rather than the sad browns and greys that surround me for far too long every single year living here
when i visit past miami posts, i am reminded of how full of color and friends our lives were there
family life aside, everything here takes so much effort for me
i am of course the only one who feels this way
both William and Lily are thriving here
and because they are thriving the way they are, it makes the thought of moving selfish and impossible
in the meanwhile i am going to keep trying to just do
and to look forward to those tropical greens and sunshine which are coming for spring break
happy friday friends
the first day of a new year
my favorite rainbow
a kitchen moment with ginger, her favorite red panda
there are many faces and moods to this wild nine year old
this guy who i wish still had a fenced in yard
the two of them together tho
a favorite room and where i spend most of my time
golden girl during golden hour
a bright kitchen window sill corner
i still love orchids
morning light
afternoon light
sunday bath. a sunday ritual
a favorite reading corner
a snow day
a snow day sewing project
