Winter

around here. january

i once heard that it takes half the time of a relationship to get over that said relationship once it’s over

if that’s true, which i sort of found it to be after my divorce to my first husband, i still have four more years left to get over our break up with miami

i am not going to lie, it has been a struggle

especially during this eternal winter (and the previous ones)

there is still not a lot that sparks joy for me in this town surrounded by mountains

there are days when i curse ever having moved here and i miss everything about miami (minus the humidity and the roaches)

since living in ashveille for the past three years, i have never felt so lonely and depressed (and angry)

sure there are good days

but it truly feels like they don’t outweigh the bad days

regardless, i try to push through and i function

i smile, i parent, i get house chores done…. i do like i’m supposed to and expected to

some days better than others (like all of us i suppose)

that sad feeling deep within me of not being where i want to be never leaves me though

sunny days help lift my mood

but i have realized that i am a tropical girl at heart (regardless of complaining about the humidity when living in miami)

i like tropical greens best

and tropical fruits and foods to go with it

i prefer summer layers to winter layers

i am inspired by (and more motivated by) bright colors rather than the sad browns and greys that surround me for far too long every single year living here

when i visit past miami posts, i am reminded of how full of color and friends our lives were there

family life aside, everything here takes so much effort for me

i am of course the only one who feels this way

both William and Lily are thriving here

and because they are thriving the way they are, it makes the thought of moving selfish and impossible

in the meanwhile i am going to keep trying to just do

and to look forward to those tropical greens and sunshine which are coming for spring break

happy friday friends

the first day of a new year

my favorite rainbow

a kitchen moment with ginger, her favorite red panda

there are many faces and moods to this wild nine year old

this guy who i wish still had a fenced in yard

the two of them together tho

a favorite room and where i spend most of my time

golden girl during golden hour

a bright kitchen window sill corner

i still love orchids

morning light

afternoon light

sunday bath. a sunday ritual

a favorite reading corner

a snow day

a snow day sewing project

christmas. twenty eighteen

for some reason christmas feels like forever ago already

to tell you the truth, i had forgotten all about these pictures and the fact that i hadn’t written about it yet

Lily began her christmas break from school on wednesday the 19th and she and William drove straight to west virginia to go spend some days with family

because i was still working full time, i was originally supposed to be working during the holidays so they were to return on the 23rd and we were going to have a quiet family christmas at home here in asheville

however, my work schedule changed (i am no longer working full time) and because they were having such an amazing time with family in west virginia, i ended up driving there myself on the day they were supposed to leave

it must have been around november when Lily told us that she no longer believed in santa because all of her good girlfriends in school had told her he was not real

that she knew it was William and i who were the real santa

fair enough. she found us out

we told her that although papa and i help santa, his magic and the magic of christmas is indeed real

on christmas eve, surrounded by family, snow falling and with her smaller cousins believing and excited for santa, her views changed

out of the blue she felt excited about the magic of santa and just like all the previous years she could not wait to get home to her grandparents house, write santa a note and leave milk and cookies for him and carrots for the reindeer

i am not going to lie, it felt good to have her believe once again

it made me feel like she is still the child i see in her despite how big she seems these days

although i was less invested in celebrating the holidays this year, we had ourselves a magical white christmas in west virginia surrounded by family

the way we always have


feijoada


feijoada is something i grew up with as a kid

what is feijoada?

well, it’s bean stew basically

feijao means bean in portuguese

there are many different ways to make feijoada

with all sorts of meat, sausage…. my favorite way is to keep it loaded with veggies

the last time Drea and her family came to visit us, i cooked it as meal for us and she has been begging me to do a post with the recipe since then

so, this one is for you Drea

happy weekend friends!



ingredients: 1 whole head of garlic, 3-4 bay leaves, 1 large can of whole peeled tomatoes, 3-4 cans of red kidney beans, 1 small green cabbage, broccoli, 5-6 carrots (olive oil, salt, black pepper and red pepper flakes not pictured)



peel garlic and cut cabbage. put garlic, bay leaves and cabbage in large pot with olive oil, salt, black pepper and red pepper flakes. cook until cabbage is soft but not wilted



add large can of whole peeled tomatoes and cook in low heat with lid on for about 10 minutes



once the tomatoes are cooked down, open the cans of beans and pour in the bean sauce only. cook in low heat for another 10 minutes with lid on and occasionally stirring



add peeled and cut carrots and raise to medium heat. cook for 10 minutes with lid on



add cut broccoli and cook covered for 5-10 minutes



add beans, cook for 5 minutes et voila!! a hearty and healthy meal